Thoughts of mine

by **heavensangel_force** on Mon Jan 25, 2010 12:23 am

Thought I can be strong.Thought I can make it throuh.Thought I can make a difference.But everything is just a thought of an illusion of reality.

I was so blind to see what is true and what is false.So blind to accept things will go right but only for wrong.How foolish I am ,not to realize I could be look-like a clown in front of those unknown people.

Or I just knew it before but don't mind if it will be done soon.I look-like a beggar.I look-like an idiot.I look-like a trash and feel humiliated.It hurts me so much and I can't bare the pain,but what else I can do,only to break down and cry.

Never thought it could happen to me.Never thought he could do such inhumane things onto me.Thought he's too kind to understand,but I was wrong.He's no longer the same person I merely knew.The person I once loved and kept here inside my heart.

A piece of me keeps me believing,a piece of me that keeps me living,but now I knew it was broken and cant fix and find the other pieces of me.Don't know what to do,can't think anymore.All I know right now,I'm hurting so much. Can't find my way back home,can't fix where I should begin...